Don't go..please don't go..how am I going to live without you..?

Finally the plane landed in JFK Airport. I was dying inside…I knew we would be together only for few moments….she was holding me tight. Since we sat on the front of the plane we were the first one to get out of the plane. But before we left, we thanked the Air Hostess and the Pilot. They wished us good luck..

I was holding her hip and slowly walking away through the covered walkway to the Immigration and Custom…I told her that since she was coming for the first time, she had to be photographed and finger printed to get her Green Card, it would take much longer time for her to get out. I put her Disembarkation form, Custom form and the Yellow sealed envelope the US Embassy gave her to give to the Immigration…

I was telling her..” Don’t worry about Immigration. They will have Bangla Interpreter in case you need. US immigration is very easy. They will not give you hard time. But it will take at least an hour to do all the necessary paperwork…Listen, most probably this will be our last talk. Don’t worry about anything. Love your husband so that he loves you back. Never feel that you are alone. I will be with you till one of us dies.”

“You don’t have to know how I am doing. Your heart will know that. New York is a big place. Maybe one day we will meet again. Who knows ..May be in a shopping center or on the street…my eyes will always look for you. I love you so much that I cannot explain. These 5 days ..You gave me the unconditional love knowing that we will not be together. It was very brave of you. I know you will be very happy…my prayer will be always with you.” She grabbed my hand, her long nail literally pinched my skin. I told her to get hold on herself..

Slowly we came to the immigration. I told her that since I was a citizen. I would have to go through separate channel. And she will have to go through separate area. I explained the whole scenario one more time…We stayed inside that area as long as we could, almost everyone left …

Finally I told her..” Let’s go.. love you so much that I will never forget you.” She was quiet ever since we got out of the plane. I said to her.” Say something please.” She looked at me. I saw tears were in her eyes. She told me..” I can’t do it. I just can’t go with a total stranger…” I held her both hands and told her,”You know that if I could I would. I promise. If there is a life after our death. If there is a second life. I will be yours. We will be together..”

She answered..” I don’t want to find out. I don’t know that, then I want to die now..” I was so shocked to hear that..”Paglami korona..tomake baachte hobe.. aste aste sob thik hoye jaabe..eksomoy moneu hobe na amar kotha..” In English, ” Don’t be crazy. You will have to live, slowly everything will be alright. One day you will not even remember me..I will be a distant memory.” She said.” That’s what you think. Maybe you will not remember me but I will remember you every second of my life.”

Finally we could not wait any longer as the immigration officers were asking us to go to them…I told her that we should go. She was hiding in my arms. I kissed her forehead , I said. “It’s time got to go.” She gave me a final hug as she was holding me tight. I literally had to open her arm-lock and pushed her towards the Immigration officer.

I looked at her ..She was slowly going towards the officer. Then she looked back and ran towards me. She jumped in my open arms…I cried. I kissed her lips. A French kiss. I pushed her way. And quickly got out of that area. It took 30 seconds to go through the immigration and custom..

I ran towards the door where it was written, “Welcome to America.” I stopped. I could still see her. On the Immigration area. I saw she was still looking at me. I raised my hand. She did too…