You will never know how much I cry for you....

I ran through the door. I could not take the pain anymore. I came outside. I saw her husband was standing there with a bouquet of flower for her. She showed me the picture in the hotel room…he did not know me..but since I was the last person coming out he came to me and asked me..” Excuse me, did you see this person..” He showed me her picture.
I told him..” Yes, I saw her. She is still in the immigration. Don’t worry she will be out soon..” I could see that he was relieved hearing that..

I came out from there. I felt so empty. There was a big void I could see in my life and I only left her fifteen minutes before. My eyes were full of tears. I just could not walk forward. I wanted to see her for the last time. I was already missing her. I left my heart with her. How could one person love so much?

How could one person feel so much for another person..? I did not know. I did not want to know. All I wanted just to see her one last time..

So I started to go to the far end door of the terminal to go outside. I knew that her husband would take the door which was much closer to the place he was standing….I took a seat next to the farthest door.

I started to wait for her to come out. I could see him from where I sat. I could see everything very clear…He was still standing with his flower and a picture…

I was thinking about the whole journey. How it changed my life forever. How I fell in love with another woman even though I was married already. How someone could love someone so much. I started to cry.

I put my two hands over my face. I did not want anyone to see me crying. There were so many people around me but I did not care. I just kept crying for her. It felt like eternity.

I saw her finally coming out. Her husband ran towards her. He tried to give her a hug but she was not looking at him. I saw she was looking left and right. She scanned the whole terminal. Her husband gave her the flower.

She took it but she was still scanning the terminal…finally she saw me, her eyes stopped on me..her husband started to pick up her luggage. He was holding her hand and pushing the trolley…

He was trying to push the trolley towards the closer door to go out. She just pulled her husband’s hand off from her hand and start walking towards me. I did not know what I should do. I just froze. She was walking straight towards me. I thought ,”Oh God. Let the floor open up and let me jump inside.”

She came closer to me and slowed down. Her eyes were all full of tears. She looked at me directly in my eyes. I already knew how to read her eye. It was clearly written ..”Please save me, I don’t want to go with this stranger..”

I just kept looking at her. Then she gave me a look…Oh ! What a look. It pierced through my heart. That look said so many things.. I could read that look perfectly that she hated me…she hated me then she just walked way. Her husband looked at me ..He was confused, he just followed her.

I kept looking at her way, he was taking her to the car parking area. She turned back and saw me standing there like a frozen statue.

She was gone. I wanted to run to her and grab her, snatch her away from her husband but did not end up doing anything. I just stood there like a statue…I stood there. Then slowly walked towards the Taxi line.